Thursday, October 28, 2010

Holy Diabetic Coma, Batman!!!

Whataburger is now offering a Chocolate Brownie Pie. (Mmmmmm, chocolate) (Mmmmmm, pie)

I know. Win - win, right? Yeah, not so much if you're diabetic. :P

I bought one anyway. It wasn't bad. I actually prefer the chocolate turnover at Arby's. Now that was some chocolatey goodness. (Mmmmmm, chocolate)

Okay, now I should probably go take another shot of insulin. :P

Not Getting Back Up Is Never An Option

Cleggy shared this video with me this morning. Thanks, Cleggy!!!

These words were the first ones I heard today and I have a feeling they will continue to resonate for me in the next few days. Music is a powerful force. It imparts so much more than just the lyrics & the notes. And this song speaks of forward motion.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A New Page?

When the new Barenaked Ladies album came out, I resisted listening to it. Steven Page leaving the band had left me a bit shell-shocked. It never occurred to me that the sound of my favorite band of all time would ever change. Evolve, yes. But not a change like this. How I felt can only be described as grief. Something I loved for years had died.

After months of refusing to listen to "All In Good Time", one night I just gave in and listened. I liked it. It was good to hear Ed, Kevin, Tyler, & Jim again. It was like running into a friend you really loved hanging out with and can't remember why you don't still hang out. Still, something felt vaguely off. Something I couldn't quite put my finger on. Just a slight niggling at the back of my mind telling me there was something tiny but important missing.

Last night a good friend shared Steven Page's new album "Page One". I decided not to be so stubborn this time so I started listening. About 3 songs in, I started feeling slightly schizophrenic. I was both happy & sad at the same time. As I listened to Steven's songs I realized what was missing.

Not just his voice (which I'm simply crazy about) but also his quirky lyrics & phrasing. Yet as I listened I still had that "something is missing" feeling. I kept expecting the boys (Ed, Kevin, Tyler, & Jim) to join him. And while artistically I loved each song more than the last, emotionally I felt like they all have tricked us or let us down.

I felt the need to stomp my foot & demand that they put the band back together & stop all this nonsense. I felt cheated almost. And yet, my foot wouldn't be still & I was humming along.

I might need therapy. :P

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Diabetes Meme

What type of diabetes do you have: Type 1

When were you diagnosed: June, 15, 1991

What's your current blood sugar: No clue & not really sure I want to know. *sigh* Tested & I was right, I didn't want to know. 212. These numbers are making me so crazy lately.

What kind of meter do you use: Ascensia Countour by Bayer which I've had for several years & I'm itching for a new one. Alas, my insurance doesn't cover the cost of the meter. Just the strips.

How many times a day do you test your blood sugar: 1-2, which is not nearly enough.

What's a "high" number for you: Anything over 250.

What's do you consider "low": Anything under 80.

What's your favorite low blood sugar reaction treater: Lime Tic Tacs if I'm just a little low. Anything below 60 requires juice. I don't swallow very well at that point so it has to be liquid because chewing & swallowing isn't going to happen.

Describe your dream endo: I actually don't have an Endo. *hears a collective gasp* I know, I know. My GP is a great guy & an even better doctor. He manages everything quite well.

What's your biggest diabetes achievement: Surviving? I don't really know, to be honest.

What's your biggest diabetes-related fear: After having my gall bladder removed in 2006 & having an open wound for 7 months, it is most definitely another surgery. I heal slower than snails on quaaludes.

Who's on your support team: My family & friends. My GP & his staff, my Gastroenterologist & his staff, and my Hemotologist & his staff. (Now do you see why I don't want another specialist?)

Do you think there will be a cure in your lifetime: Depends on what day you ask me. Most days, yes I do believe they will get there. But some days, when the numbers on my meter are over 250 or over 300, I'm pretty sure I won't live long enough to see it.

What is a "cure" to you: No more shots, testing, A1C's, slow healing, lows that leave me unable to speak, highs that leave me with blinding headaches, struggling to pay for all the medicines that are necessary just to live, and no more watching my family & friends worry that this will be the year that my kidneys/heart/eyes start to fail.

The most annoying thing people say to you about your diabetes is: When they assume I have Type 2 instead of Type 1 because of my weight. And of course then they proceed to tell me that if I just lose some weight the diabetes would go away. Which would be surprising news for my doctor.

What is the most common misconception about diabetes: People are either one extreme or the other. They either think diabetes is no worse than the common cold or they think you are at death's door. There's a whole lot of middle ground in there people!

If you could say one thing to your pancreas, what would it be: "Get back to work, you lazy bastard!!!"